budak budak -.-

baru baru ni aku ada pergi gig dekat kajang. ada band dr AUSTRALIA datang. STILL WATER CLAIMS. aku ingat band hardcore punk tp band post hardcore rupanya. tp biarlah, layan je. haha :D

so macam biasalah. kajang memang terkenal dengan budak budak metalcore nya. haha. so band yg perform hari tu ade 5 band je. STILL WATER CLAIMS , AVALON WHISPER , THE PADANGS , BURN OUT , THY REGIMENT. opening band hari tu band AVALON WHISPER. AVALON da baru sial. da mmg pure post sekarang. haha. frontman pun da tukar. pijol da tk jadi throat untuk diorang dah. haha. tp performance dorang boleh tahan la. muzik baru kan. agak melayankan la jugak. haha

abes je avalon, THE PADANGS pulak beraksi. hah, ini lah aku nk bercerita tentang bebudak. haha. gig dekat kajang ni satu je, bila ade je gig dekat sane, budak budak bersepah. siap ada yg darjah 5 mcm tu. bayangkan la kecik tak kecik. haha. kalau aku dulu, besar besar ni pegi mengaji quran je tau ? so time the padangs perform, budak budak ni la yg sing a long sakan. haha. dengan baju 'sucide silence' dorang, 'the devil wears prada' dorang. konon abis hardcore la tu :p hahaha. jahat gila aku ni. haha. then budak budak ni alahai -.- dengan 2 step nye, dgn mosh nye -.- weng dgn adli boleh bantai gelak tgk bebudak tu. babi menganjing. tau la orang lama. hahaha :D abes je THE PADANGS, BURN OUT pulak beraksi. hah, BURN OUT main genre hardcore punk so memang kene la dgn selera aku dan jangan marah kalau aku hyper time tu. haha. kira time BURN OUT perform tu, budak budak semua lepak belakang. yang dekat depan just ade aku, mamak, bebudak dancing kids. kira muka muka sama je dekat gig. haishh. macam mana la scene nk berkembang kalau asyik memilih band je -.-

THY REGIMENT mcm biasalah. tetap energetic. tetap terbaik :) STILL WATER CLAIMS ? NOT BAD :) terima kasih sebab datang malaysia. nnt datang la lagi, datang la lagi :D haha


*now playing make a change by youth of today :)

DAH LAMA DAH

haha. dah lama gila tk update blog ni. bukan apa. lately asyik busy je then internet pun mcm haram. sial betul broadband ni. tunggu masa nak ke longkang jee. hahaha :D

birthday :)

tepat je pukul 12 tanggal 26 september aku pun cepat cepat capai phone and call si amyraa ni. haha. 26 september genap la dia berumur 18 tahun. dah boleh tgk cerita 18sx wey :D haha. macam macam la kitorang borak time tu. almaklum la since dia dah ade abang fazli rafee, aku da kurang text dia dah. lagipun masing masing da sibuk dgn study kan. tapi apa apa pun dia tetap yg terbaik dan sentiasa ada dalam hati aku tau :) dia kawan terbaik bagi aku dan tak mungkin aku akan lupakan dia dan semuanya tentang dia :') amyraa, i rindukan you tau ? 3bulan dekat PLKN pun da menyiksa ini apetah lg hampir 5bulan kan kita tk jumpa ? haha. i rindu time kita lepak apa semua, kita gelak, kita head banging, sing a long dekat gig apa semua. wow, semuanya still lg dalam kepala i dan i ingat lagi tau. haha. dan i still lg teringat mcm mana muka you time i bgtau i kene pg PLKN tu. hahaha. lawak lawak :D haha. hmm, so sempena birthday you, i berdoa supaya :

*dipanjangkan umur
*sihat tubuh badan dan waras :p
*dipanjangkan jodoh dengan abang fazli rafee :D
*berjaya dalam hidup (skema betul ayat) hahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMYRAA a.k.a PANDA GEMUK :D HAHAHA <3

straight edge ?

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miles away :)

13 tracks
*100 yen
*window seat
*sailor grave
*wake up
*cranford ave
*voices
*raising sun
*excursion
*brainwashed
*outrage
*safe as houses
*affadavit
*rewind repeat ( instrumental )

1) 100 yen
- I opened my eyes
to a world of excessiveness
pettiness mindless greed
made the vow then and now
never break my stand
common goals not selfish ways
the road i choose to take
against the grain in such status times
these people i can't explain
driven by the dollar sign.

2) window seat
- Lights are out, blinds are open
everyone sleeps my eyes cant close them
think about endless roads
that lead to empty landscapes
all i see are power lines
monotony no stranger to me
monotony no stranger to me
theres a thirst that i can't quench
got a taste like year old batteries
theres a place id rather be
scared to take those first steps
time the destroyer
watch over me
as i waste away wait to leave this room
leave my thoughts alone
time the destroyer
watch over me
trapped inside these four walls
watching life go by.

3) sailor grave
- Sink or Swim!
drown in this life
or search for some meaning
drift with the tide
are you gonna sit back betray your own feelings?
in a city where everyone knows your name
hard to find the spark keep going strong
gotta shut it all out break free of self doubt
or just succumb to a miserable cycle
just a clone a clone i dont wanna be
fight the tide, the tide of narrow minds
set adrift water logged gotta take control
storms ahead, living in regret never helps your soul
fucking make me whole
sink or swim!
get lost in the waves or take care of business
drift with the tide
if im going under ill fight for survival
i cant stand it, i wont fake it
i wanna walk in fields of gold
i cant stand it, i wont take this
living life in a fucking sailors grave.


4) wake up
- Everyday i wake up the same
void of feeling and of aim
everyday i taste the defeat
endless cycle so incomplete
running into walls again
chip my teeth on all these bricks
every things so plain to see
nine till five its hounding me
tow the line, make the dime
stranglehold im not free
theres no way out, we're all the same
ripe with self doubt
its just a fame they just maintain
theres no way out
working class life force fed their shit
we cant escape
theres no way out
while they still maintain
weve all been tamed
everyday i wake up the same

5) cranford ave
- Memories way back when
i thought i ad it all
constant battles going on inside
always getting caught up in before
demons they stay hidden
but they come creeping back
when im walking ahead and i feel content
just backtrack
push self destruct when we had enough
brings me right back
to the place that i know
where i call home sits empty
to the place i know
the only place so empty
a witness to my life in a third person view
a witness to mu life i just cant take control
retrace my steps year after year
feel it in my soul im not content
push rewind hit repeat
alarm clocks ring and its groundhog day
i just cant figure out my wrong turns
lost in maps that represent my life
its dragging on, dragging on
im losing grip
dragging on, dragging on
ive lost my hold
sanctuary of dead ends
thats where ill be
sanctuary of dead ends thats where i..

6) voices
- There are sometimes in my life
everything feels right
dont pay attention i give it all
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels wrong
im hearing voices they get me down
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels right
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels wrong
and they say all good things come to an end
i say fuck it they barely even started
drink to find comfort, drink to forget
eleven years later it hasnt helped yet
and they say always think about your future
well i dont care im living for the moment
worries for later those things dont phase me
until they start forcing direction
waiting for the day searching for a way
gotta find some place that i dont feel failure
what they what they say
doesnt make much sense to me
what they what they say
it puts me in a state of decline
what they say what they say
its always whats best for them
when you taech me how to feel
thats when i turn myself off

7) raising sun
- Weathered body saddened face
all the times shes been a phase
trophy life a useless waste
it will always be her pain
just an object used til dawn
yeah she knows hell never care
every day so fucking torn
its all shell every know
she settles for second best
every time every night
crying shame she aint the same
but it will always be her pain
just an object used till dawn
yeah she knows hell never care
wasting life spent as a pawn
its all shell ever know
try to give something get nothing back
wasted your a pride a cheap side
all she knows is how to be abused
gotta understand theres something more
lay it on the line lay it on the line!
shell never knows she worth so much more
lay it on the line! lay it on the line
shell never know shes worth so much more
youll never be the one his only rising sun
you say theres nothing you can do
girl theres nothing you cant do.

8) excursion
- Quit my job pack my bags
wave goodbye to all my friends
the open road tour begins
endless weeks without a rest
dont get me wrong i cant complain
traveled the world and seen real life
own nothing but thats just fine
wont forget these priceless years
toyko to long island
prince of wales Vancouver
and everything thats in between
we are nomads of our own design
not made of money but well never mind
sometimes when im miles from home
i feel cold so alone
then i realize where im at
with my friends in a van
these feelings cant be bought
memories forever shared
one day this will end
but im not scared no im not scared.

9) brainwashed
- if i blindly followed id be lying to myself
made the best of life with the cards that ive been dealt
gotta say that ive found peace within myself
wont waste time stand in a line your games i will not play
inside my head the coast is clear
i stand my ground youll never change my mind
refuse to wait i choose my fate
and nothing!
nothings in my way
rules and regulations forced inside your head
follow the herd believe their words
live the fucking lie
inside my head the coast is clear
ill stand my ground got my own life to live
its a brainwash and i see strait through
suckers make you think youve got something to prove
your fucking brainwashed everything you do
following the leader like they told you to
brainwashed! your fucking brainwashed
brainwashed! you've gotta break out.

10) outrage
- Cant avoid it enrage me
cross the line i wont stay still
got the bottle ill outrage you
your just a person that dont phase me

anytime you engage me
dont think that i wont fucking face you
every time you make me crazy
dont think that ill keep it shut

cant avoid it enrage me
cross the line i wont stay still
got the bottle ill outrage you
your just a person that dont phase me

11) safe as houses
- Blank page form the start
now it begins sequel time
feel the breeze of belonging
feelings that ive always craved
November came December went
January swerved off track
rejuvenated second month
and since then not looked back
i quit searching so long ago
never thought that id return
uncovered a meaning lost inside
problems shared full of healing
for future reference i am writing these words
bookmark this song i can always return
a turning point forever be heard
i feel alive form now and beyond
never though that u would say
three words that mean the world to me
cured those words four years ago
promised i would take my time
the mountains i have longed to climb
seen the light in your eyes
felt the warmth of your touch
explored a mind of perfection
but u can safely say ive thought long of those days
where our lives would meet and we built our dreams
and i can safely say we searched long for this day
now its all come true and i feel brand new
we will shine forged anew
we will shine forged anew
what we share paved in stone
in days to come our love will always shine.

12) affadavit
- Focused concentration levels never felt before
craving realization
train my mind dont lose sight
gotta keep the motion
forwards never look back
now ive made this statement
tendered here for all to see
took so long to find myself
i intend to use this wealth and this time
i will rise sincerely
above the waste of yesteryears
changes i see clearly
right my wrongs without fear
confidently shading gaps ive even left blank
furiously painting sign my name full top

this is my affidavit
my self mediation
mu inner arbitration
my sworn affidavit

find faith within yourself
live life for something true
dont ever waste those dreams
love like a newborn flame

find faith within yourself!
live life for someone true!
dont ever waste your dreams!
love like you cant explain!


*<3 <3 <3 <3 for rewind repeat :)

miles away :)

4 tracks
*ghostwriter
*so i guess this means i'm out of the bookclub
*rain eyes
*nowhere else


1) ghostwriter
- What did you expect, it’s always been this way
Looking for the chance to finally feel complete
Years fly by, you only live the past
Disowned, by myself, don’t ask why
I’m losing battles that I’ve already won
I’m fighting demons that are already dead

Because you left
Left that space inside my head
Empty space without a trace
Feelings all but lost inside
Emotion hard to fight, emotion now is hard to find
The full void, an empty well
Cobwebs in a jaded hell

These are the things that I don’t want you to hear
The hidden traits that I fucking fear
There’s certain things I keep inside
The dark side of my mind
There’s certain things I cannot find
The dark side of my mind
These are the things that I don’t want you to see

Say goodbye to all of those thoughts
Say goodbye to everything
Say goodbye to a mind locked in the past and all I’ve kept inside
Breaking and taking this home I’ve been making
Waking and faking these breaths I’ve been taking

Life takes a hold, time takes its toll
Life takes a hold, takes control

2) so i guess this means i'm out of the bookclub
- Breaking backs just to get ahead
Taking strides, try to feel alive
What we crave, something more than imagery
What remains, superficial lies
Still the masses wander blind
In a shallow world, pushed aside
Controlled by fear, unjustified
Read between the lines, a lack of substance in our lives
Courage washed out with the tide, it’s irreversible
Don’t settle for less, we settle for less, we settle again

3) rain eyes
- Reflect against a mirror of yesterday
Laughter we shared, a moment of clarity
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
So think back, look deep within, don’t let the burden suck you in
I know there are times we question reasoning
The best ones you know, the first ones to go

And now we’re grown up, we forgot all we had to say
Like sand running through our hands, eroding days away

Against a window of yesterday
Drama we shared, wouldn’t change a thing
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
In the end tragedy closes in
Stealing young lives before they even begin
And taking old lives that need to be read
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
We won’t forget times that were shared, the memories remain
We won’t forget times were shared, the knowledge engrained
So flick through old photographs, remember the lives that have come to pass
Holding back the year that come so fast

As the tears roll down your face
The pain of seeing your love laid waste
This is not in vain, we will not forget

Now we’re grown up, we forgot all we had to say
Like sand through our hands, eroding days away
We won’t forget times that were shared, the memory embraced

4) nowhere else
- Get in the van, let’s begin
Driving over Europe, thirty shows thirty days
Ten hours spent laying in the loft
Blackmailed in Spain by shady cops

The road is long
The floors are hard
The van’s a mess
There’s nowhere else I’d rather be

Darken the cabin, turn on a movie
We lose our minds, A.V.P.
Arrive at the show somewhere new
Foosball, bubble water, punk rock stew

The road is long
The floors are hard
The van’s a mess
There’s nowhere else we’d rather be

*<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 for memory embraced :)

midterm exam

haa. kan semalam aku tak boleh tidor kan ? haishh. entah la. aku rase aku tidor dlm pukul 6 lebih mcm tu kott. sedar sedar je pagi tadi, zack da terpampang depan mata aku and lajuje aku pegi mandi pagi tadi. haa.

so nk pendek kan cerita, pagi tadi ade exam kan dann err, yeah aku tak boleh buat duh. susah gila. banyak jugak aku tk siap. haa :( tp nk buat mcm mane. benda da lepas kan so pegi mampus lah. that mean aku kene study study and study lagi :)

hmm, dan yg best nye today class citu and class drum cancel ! yeayy :D