miles away :)

13 tracks
*100 yen
*window seat
*sailor grave
*wake up
*cranford ave
*voices
*raising sun
*excursion
*brainwashed
*outrage
*safe as houses
*affadavit
*rewind repeat ( instrumental )

1) 100 yen
- I opened my eyes
to a world of excessiveness
pettiness mindless greed
made the vow then and now
never break my stand
common goals not selfish ways
the road i choose to take
against the grain in such status times
these people i can't explain
driven by the dollar sign.

2) window seat
- Lights are out, blinds are open
everyone sleeps my eyes cant close them
think about endless roads
that lead to empty landscapes
all i see are power lines
monotony no stranger to me
monotony no stranger to me
theres a thirst that i can't quench
got a taste like year old batteries
theres a place id rather be
scared to take those first steps
time the destroyer
watch over me
as i waste away wait to leave this room
leave my thoughts alone
time the destroyer
watch over me
trapped inside these four walls
watching life go by.

3) sailor grave
- Sink or Swim!
drown in this life
or search for some meaning
drift with the tide
are you gonna sit back betray your own feelings?
in a city where everyone knows your name
hard to find the spark keep going strong
gotta shut it all out break free of self doubt
or just succumb to a miserable cycle
just a clone a clone i dont wanna be
fight the tide, the tide of narrow minds
set adrift water logged gotta take control
storms ahead, living in regret never helps your soul
fucking make me whole
sink or swim!
get lost in the waves or take care of business
drift with the tide
if im going under ill fight for survival
i cant stand it, i wont fake it
i wanna walk in fields of gold
i cant stand it, i wont take this
living life in a fucking sailors grave.


4) wake up
- Everyday i wake up the same
void of feeling and of aim
everyday i taste the defeat
endless cycle so incomplete
running into walls again
chip my teeth on all these bricks
every things so plain to see
nine till five its hounding me
tow the line, make the dime
stranglehold im not free
theres no way out, we're all the same
ripe with self doubt
its just a fame they just maintain
theres no way out
working class life force fed their shit
we cant escape
theres no way out
while they still maintain
weve all been tamed
everyday i wake up the same

5) cranford ave
- Memories way back when
i thought i ad it all
constant battles going on inside
always getting caught up in before
demons they stay hidden
but they come creeping back
when im walking ahead and i feel content
just backtrack
push self destruct when we had enough
brings me right back
to the place that i know
where i call home sits empty
to the place i know
the only place so empty
a witness to my life in a third person view
a witness to mu life i just cant take control
retrace my steps year after year
feel it in my soul im not content
push rewind hit repeat
alarm clocks ring and its groundhog day
i just cant figure out my wrong turns
lost in maps that represent my life
its dragging on, dragging on
im losing grip
dragging on, dragging on
ive lost my hold
sanctuary of dead ends
thats where ill be
sanctuary of dead ends thats where i..

6) voices
- There are sometimes in my life
everything feels right
dont pay attention i give it all
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels wrong
im hearing voices they get me down
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels right
there are sometimes in my life
everything feels wrong
and they say all good things come to an end
i say fuck it they barely even started
drink to find comfort, drink to forget
eleven years later it hasnt helped yet
and they say always think about your future
well i dont care im living for the moment
worries for later those things dont phase me
until they start forcing direction
waiting for the day searching for a way
gotta find some place that i dont feel failure
what they what they say
doesnt make much sense to me
what they what they say
it puts me in a state of decline
what they say what they say
its always whats best for them
when you taech me how to feel
thats when i turn myself off

7) raising sun
- Weathered body saddened face
all the times shes been a phase
trophy life a useless waste
it will always be her pain
just an object used til dawn
yeah she knows hell never care
every day so fucking torn
its all shell every know
she settles for second best
every time every night
crying shame she aint the same
but it will always be her pain
just an object used till dawn
yeah she knows hell never care
wasting life spent as a pawn
its all shell ever know
try to give something get nothing back
wasted your a pride a cheap side
all she knows is how to be abused
gotta understand theres something more
lay it on the line lay it on the line!
shell never knows she worth so much more
lay it on the line! lay it on the line
shell never know shes worth so much more
youll never be the one his only rising sun
you say theres nothing you can do
girl theres nothing you cant do.

8) excursion
- Quit my job pack my bags
wave goodbye to all my friends
the open road tour begins
endless weeks without a rest
dont get me wrong i cant complain
traveled the world and seen real life
own nothing but thats just fine
wont forget these priceless years
toyko to long island
prince of wales Vancouver
and everything thats in between
we are nomads of our own design
not made of money but well never mind
sometimes when im miles from home
i feel cold so alone
then i realize where im at
with my friends in a van
these feelings cant be bought
memories forever shared
one day this will end
but im not scared no im not scared.

9) brainwashed
- if i blindly followed id be lying to myself
made the best of life with the cards that ive been dealt
gotta say that ive found peace within myself
wont waste time stand in a line your games i will not play
inside my head the coast is clear
i stand my ground youll never change my mind
refuse to wait i choose my fate
and nothing!
nothings in my way
rules and regulations forced inside your head
follow the herd believe their words
live the fucking lie
inside my head the coast is clear
ill stand my ground got my own life to live
its a brainwash and i see strait through
suckers make you think youve got something to prove
your fucking brainwashed everything you do
following the leader like they told you to
brainwashed! your fucking brainwashed
brainwashed! you've gotta break out.

10) outrage
- Cant avoid it enrage me
cross the line i wont stay still
got the bottle ill outrage you
your just a person that dont phase me

anytime you engage me
dont think that i wont fucking face you
every time you make me crazy
dont think that ill keep it shut

cant avoid it enrage me
cross the line i wont stay still
got the bottle ill outrage you
your just a person that dont phase me

11) safe as houses
- Blank page form the start
now it begins sequel time
feel the breeze of belonging
feelings that ive always craved
November came December went
January swerved off track
rejuvenated second month
and since then not looked back
i quit searching so long ago
never thought that id return
uncovered a meaning lost inside
problems shared full of healing
for future reference i am writing these words
bookmark this song i can always return
a turning point forever be heard
i feel alive form now and beyond
never though that u would say
three words that mean the world to me
cured those words four years ago
promised i would take my time
the mountains i have longed to climb
seen the light in your eyes
felt the warmth of your touch
explored a mind of perfection
but u can safely say ive thought long of those days
where our lives would meet and we built our dreams
and i can safely say we searched long for this day
now its all come true and i feel brand new
we will shine forged anew
we will shine forged anew
what we share paved in stone
in days to come our love will always shine.

12) affadavit
- Focused concentration levels never felt before
craving realization
train my mind dont lose sight
gotta keep the motion
forwards never look back
now ive made this statement
tendered here for all to see
took so long to find myself
i intend to use this wealth and this time
i will rise sincerely
above the waste of yesteryears
changes i see clearly
right my wrongs without fear
confidently shading gaps ive even left blank
furiously painting sign my name full top

this is my affidavit
my self mediation
mu inner arbitration
my sworn affidavit

find faith within yourself
live life for something true
dont ever waste those dreams
love like a newborn flame

find faith within yourself!
live life for someone true!
dont ever waste your dreams!
love like you cant explain!


*<3 <3 <3 <3 for rewind repeat :)

miles away :)

4 tracks
*ghostwriter
*so i guess this means i'm out of the bookclub
*rain eyes
*nowhere else


1) ghostwriter
- What did you expect, it’s always been this way
Looking for the chance to finally feel complete
Years fly by, you only live the past
Disowned, by myself, don’t ask why
I’m losing battles that I’ve already won
I’m fighting demons that are already dead

Because you left
Left that space inside my head
Empty space without a trace
Feelings all but lost inside
Emotion hard to fight, emotion now is hard to find
The full void, an empty well
Cobwebs in a jaded hell

These are the things that I don’t want you to hear
The hidden traits that I fucking fear
There’s certain things I keep inside
The dark side of my mind
There’s certain things I cannot find
The dark side of my mind
These are the things that I don’t want you to see

Say goodbye to all of those thoughts
Say goodbye to everything
Say goodbye to a mind locked in the past and all I’ve kept inside
Breaking and taking this home I’ve been making
Waking and faking these breaths I’ve been taking

Life takes a hold, time takes its toll
Life takes a hold, takes control

2) so i guess this means i'm out of the bookclub
- Breaking backs just to get ahead
Taking strides, try to feel alive
What we crave, something more than imagery
What remains, superficial lies
Still the masses wander blind
In a shallow world, pushed aside
Controlled by fear, unjustified
Read between the lines, a lack of substance in our lives
Courage washed out with the tide, it’s irreversible
Don’t settle for less, we settle for less, we settle again

3) rain eyes
- Reflect against a mirror of yesterday
Laughter we shared, a moment of clarity
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
So think back, look deep within, don’t let the burden suck you in
I know there are times we question reasoning
The best ones you know, the first ones to go

And now we’re grown up, we forgot all we had to say
Like sand running through our hands, eroding days away

Against a window of yesterday
Drama we shared, wouldn’t change a thing
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
In the end tragedy closes in
Stealing young lives before they even begin
And taking old lives that need to be read
The best ones you know, the first ones to go
We won’t forget times that were shared, the memories remain
We won’t forget times were shared, the knowledge engrained
So flick through old photographs, remember the lives that have come to pass
Holding back the year that come so fast

As the tears roll down your face
The pain of seeing your love laid waste
This is not in vain, we will not forget

Now we’re grown up, we forgot all we had to say
Like sand through our hands, eroding days away
We won’t forget times that were shared, the memory embraced

4) nowhere else
- Get in the van, let’s begin
Driving over Europe, thirty shows thirty days
Ten hours spent laying in the loft
Blackmailed in Spain by shady cops

The road is long
The floors are hard
The van’s a mess
There’s nowhere else I’d rather be

Darken the cabin, turn on a movie
We lose our minds, A.V.P.
Arrive at the show somewhere new
Foosball, bubble water, punk rock stew

The road is long
The floors are hard
The van’s a mess
There’s nowhere else we’d rather be

*<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 for memory embraced :)

midterm exam

haa. kan semalam aku tak boleh tidor kan ? haishh. entah la. aku rase aku tidor dlm pukul 6 lebih mcm tu kott. sedar sedar je pagi tadi, zack da terpampang depan mata aku and lajuje aku pegi mandi pagi tadi. haa.

so nk pendek kan cerita, pagi tadi ade exam kan dann err, yeah aku tak boleh buat duh. susah gila. banyak jugak aku tk siap. haa :( tp nk buat mcm mane. benda da lepas kan so pegi mampus lah. that mean aku kene study study and study lagi :)

hmm, dan yg best nye today class citu and class drum cancel ! yeayy :D

tidor.

haa. dah agak lame aku tak membebel dlm blog ni. haishh bukan ape, just lately ni emosi tk menentu la. perubahan hormon semasa. cewah. haha :D

hmm, today is monday and harini 30 ogos and semua orang tau kan yg esok kita akan menyambut MERDEKA ! haha. but what the meaning MERDEKA for me ? err aku still lagi belum faham ape tu merdeka bg remaja macam aku. maybe still lg belum nk menghayati kan ? hah, ape nk jadi ni. ape ape lah.

so macam biasa. mcm hari sebelum belum ni. hari isnin je mmg aku akan ade 4 class. 9.30 class music theory then 10.20 class BEL and then 2.00pm class CiTU and pukul 8.00pm pulak class percussion and drum. haishh bosan nye. dah la lapar, class dlm aircond, ustaz bosan dan semestinya mengantuk. so time jam dah tunjuk pukul 5 pagi mcm tu, aku pun decide nk tidor and berhenti study. oh before aku lupa, aku esoknya aku ade midterm exam for music theory. that why aku tgh study ni. 30 marks tu. banyak tu. haa. so ape lagi, aku pun rebahkan la badan ke katil.

haishh, sekarang jam da tepat pukul 6 mcm tu and da azan dah time tu tp aku still lagi tak boleh tidor. aduhh. kenape ni ? kang tk peppasal aku mengantuk dalam class BEL pnya la. dah la esok ade exam. alaa kenape ni ? :/

hahaha :D

okayy shima fauzil tgh bace blog saya :D

miles away :)

okayy. sekarang ayuh kita bercerita tentang band pula. haha :D okayy kepada sesiapa yg layan miles away ( perth hardcore punk ) , band ni datang MALAYSIA WEYY OKTOBER NI ! haha. aku teruja gila sial. kau ingat senang ke ? haha. pape pun jgn lupa serang sesama okayy nnt :D


*lagu lagu dari album rewind , repeat dgn EP memory embraced sentiasa dekat playlist minggu ni :D

kisah gunting rambut :/

duit dalam poket ade la RM 30 dan dalam hati mmg membuak buak nak potong rambut ni so aku pun decide nak potong dekat mamak jelaa. okayy so aku pun pegi la kedai mamak tu then duduk dekat kerusi dia and ni diantara perbualan aku dgn mamak tu yg mmg aku ingt bulat bulat :

mamak : aiyoo adik kasi duduk duduk

apis : i nak potong mohawk tau ? itu tepi kasi pendek punya

mamak : tau tau. kasi diam diam duduk okayy.

apis : okayy. bagi lawa lawa eh ?

mamak : okayy okayy .

then korang tau dia potong mcm mane ? alaa babi nye. dia potong tepi je then dia ckp SIAP ! ape babi -.- aku nk mohawk bg pacak okayy. sial betul. okayy mamak tu salah potong dan aku mmg tk confident so aku decide nak chow.

apis : berape ?

mamak : RM 10 saja.

apis : sepuluh ? abah kau -.- kau salah potoong la babi

mamak : mana ada salah. betul la.

so nak tak nak terpaksa la bayar. haishh. now duit ada RM20. rambut mmg kene potong jugak. tkkn nak pegi sekolah mcm ni kott kan ? apa babi. haishh. so aku pun pegi la saloon yg terdekat. aku pegi saloon tu dgn harapan dia akan mencantikkan rambut aku la. haa. sampai je saloon tu aku pun ckp la dgn cashier dia :

apis : saya mau potong rambut. rambut saya jd mcm badut. itu mamak banyak bodoh

cashier : haha. kesian sama lu. haha. tala apa tala apa. kasi duduk. saya boleh suluh
olang saya kasi cantik cantik lu punya lambut. kasi duduk diam diam maa.

apis : okayy okayy .

amoy : lu mau gunting apa pattern ?

apis : eh you mana datang ? tak penah nampak pongg before this ?

amoy : saya olang balu dekat sini maa

apis : err okayy. lu tau itu mohawak kan ? itu pacak pnyaa ?

amoy : haiyaa tau tau. kalu talak tau saya talak keja sini maa

apis : haha. okayy okayy. kasi cun cun punya eh lengloi.

memula mmg la lawa amoy ni buat tetiba,

apis : eh yang kau potong belakang buat ape ? i nk buat mohawk kott ?

amoy : haiyaa. lu tamau potong belakang ke ? lu tala cakap apa pasal ? haiyaa

apis : abah kau ? ni rambut aku da mcm orang asli apa cita ?

amoy : haiyaa solly solly.

apis : abah kau sorry ? kau potong cepat sial. jgn nak banyak ckp la kan ? babi betul

amoy : lu keleja ka belajar ?

apis : kau jgn banyak tnya boleh tak ? kau siap kan keje kau cepat. aku nak berambus dr sini. fuck sial buruk duh.


hah mcm ni la cite dia dan senang cite YES RAMBUT AKU BURUK OKAYY ? da mcm orang asli tau ? babi betul la mamak bodoh dgn amoy cap ayam tu. babi babi babi babi. mmg aku tk puas hati ni. aduuhh. mmg lawak dan kene gelak la ? sampai kan orang yg aku ehem ehem pun ckp mcm org asli tau ? haha :D fucking bitch sial. mmg sumpah seranah la aku td. tp nak buat mcm mane kan ? benda da potong. and da kne gelak da pun dgn budak batch aku. esok lagi la kene bahan kan ? haishh sabar jelaa. azab azab. maybe ni kali terakhir aku potong rambut kott ? ohh tak tak buka kott tp yes. ni kali terakhir aku potong rambut. if nak potong pun, aku potong time final or sem depan. haa. tu jelaa. haishh.


*nak menagis, nak jerit, nak maki dan nak call shima fauzil :)

padan muka .

yes. kali ni baru faham dan mmg agak terasa. before ni aku tak faham faham lagi kan ? haha. kali ni baru aku faham. patut pun lately ni dia mcm lain. mungkin ye atau mungkin perasaan aku kan ? haha. ape ape lah. kecewa ? ada la sikit tapi aku tak boleh salahkan sesiapa kan ? haha. hak memasing. hmm, now jam pun da pukul 4pagi. jap lagi class pukul 8.30 pagi. so better study jap and tidor. dah la apis, jangan nak menaruh harapan lagi, hentikan semua. tak payah nak text and tggu call dia or ape jelaa. haha, padan muka aku. hmm, goodnight plus goodmorning semua :)


*now playing ceremony by carpathian ( isolation )

vic firth :)

"drumsticks are the link between drummers and their drums. For me, Vic Firth has perfected that link"




*hafiz nazri
orchid city straight edge

diploma in music :)

'its really fun & easy to play music ! but its really2 hard & stressful to study music. aint that right ? ' :)

awak dan saya :)

awak awak, saya nk bagitau ni. sebenarnye... errrr, malu lah :p haha. awak, nanti la saya bgtau. haha :D




*now playing first date by blink 182

sahur :)

haa. baru lepas sahur. dengan mata rabak nye. haha. sahur dgn zack, ubiey, jack, min, sopi, ibi, amy, tompel and keli. haa. after da gelak gelak tahap gaban punya sampai aku menages tau ? haha. mcm mcm la kitorang borak tadi. borak la, mengummpat lah. haha :D dah lepak gelak gelak mcm td, aku rase mcm malas la pulak nk duduk uma next semester. haha. rase mcm tk feel. haha :D


*now playing fear is our tradition by ignite (darknest hour)

lepas satu, satu. haha :D

haha. lepas satu satu kan ? haha. yeah violin. aku ingt susah nk main bnda ni tp tkde lah susah mane kan. haha. cuma nk bowing je mcm lebam sket. haha. mcm chord dia ape semua lebih kurang gtar jelaa. haha. cuma dia pnya sound lebih light. lebih soprano. dah name pun the highest pitch in strings family kan ? haha. pape pun, best main benda gosok gosok ni :p


*now playing number one by down to nothing ( all my sons EP )

buruk gila ? haha :D

haha. gaya tidur mcm ni pun ade lagi eh ? tidur smbil ISAP JARI. haha. tompel tompel :D haha


*klu dia tau gambar dia dlm blog aku, mampus aku. haha :D haha

haha. tak abes abes :D

haha. tak abes abes kan ? tak abes abes pasal vans kan ? haha. nak buat mcm mane dah kasut dia semua lawa mcm hareeemmm kan so tak salah nk brkongsi kan kan ? haha. ni ade lg contoh contoh yg mmg rare. haha :D









*mane nak dapt aunthentic navy blue ni ? FUCK SIAL -.-

isu tiket slash :D

aku rase semua orang tau kott yang slash datang sunway hari tu ? mesti ramai gila yg pegi kan ? aku tk pegi la sebab SATU pun lagu dia aku taktau. haha :D aku dengar cite sampai tiket abes eh ? gila lah kan. haha. tp aku bukan nak cite ttg slash sebenar nye tapi tentang tiket slash. haha. mcm ni, kawan aku mmg minat gila dekat slash tp dia tk dpt pegi so dia mcm tkde mood la time tu tp lepas dia jumpe je flyers ni, hah, da mcm sawan babi la gaya dia. haha. nk tau flyers ape ? hah, ni dia :




tiket slash RM2 ? kau gila ke ape ? haha. yg membe aku sorang ni da mula semangat sangat la lepas tgk flyers ni. haha. dia percaya kott ? haha. then kitorang yakin kan dia yg tiket tu harga RM 200 bkn RM 2. haha :D flyers ni kitorang jumpe dekat studio faculty of music. haha


*tahun depan panggil la yussuf islam :p

vans :D

see ? semua VANS kan ? haha :D hentikan MACBETH anda, hentikan SUPRA anda mahupun CONVERSE anda. gunalah VANS tanpa was was :p haha

malaysia metalcore MY*MC

haa. ni MY*MC FEST. tak salah aku ni da masuk kali ketiga kott gig ni ? hah, satu usaha yang sangat baik bagi memajukan scene metalcore malaysia. *cewah ayat. haha. congrats ye ROCKBAND ENTERTAIMENT. list band yang perform hari tu pun semua mantop mantop. rugi klu tak pegi ni. haha. tapi mcm biasa lah, kalau gig metalcore mmg saya jd pemalu tp bak datang hardcore tgk. haha. time tu mmg hyper abes lah kan. haha :D pape pun, jom la ramai ramai ke sane :)

*now playing let it all rust by verse

ohhh :')

a successful person does not always have the best in life but one who tries to make the best or whatever he has ! auww :')

student :)

yes saya kembali menjadi student. haha. tp beza nya no more BAJU SEKOLAH, no more RAMBUT PENDEK, no more PANJAT TEMBOK. haha. and i try nak berubah and now tgh target nak jd best student. insyallah :)

*p/s - key signature pun kelam kabut lagi. haha :D

Berbuka :)

Yeah. Today berbuka dkt jaja cafe. Makan nasi lemak ayam kampung dgn kopi ais. Huh, sedap tau dia pnya nasi lemak :D Berbuka dengan lalat, abbas, wan, najmie, wani, erin, nad, sherine. Haa, guess what ? Aku sorang je single woh. Yang lain semua 'belangkas'. Haha. Yeah. Dunia dunia. Haha :p

*p/s - sape nak jadi girlfriend saya tolong text saya okay :p

key signature -.-

hmm, key signature ? hah ambik kau. SEPATAH HAREEEMM aku tak faham time dlm class td. mmg blurr abes la kan ? lain la classmate yg mmg da ade basic since dari sekolah. dorang mmg tapau la benda benda mcm ni. haa. tapi orang mcm aku ni ? hah, MENCARI la kau.

*p/s - da mcm orang gila nak menghafal dan faham benda ni. music music dan music. hmm

kurang pahala puasa aku :p haha

err picture ape ni ? haha. ni semua si dia la yg begitu teruja suruh aku tengok. haha. dia suruh tgk 2 hari lepas tp time tu internet mcm hareemmm so bila aku bukak je tadi, hah AMBIK KAU ! haha. tapi serius shit picture ni lawa. haha. tgk breast dia tu ? auww. 'cas positif bertemu cas negatif'. haha :D

*p/s - binatang pun tau mane jantan mane betina kan kan ? :D

tidur ! haha :D

tidur ? haha. mcm mcm gelagat dan jenis tau ? haha. buruk bukan ? haha :D

hmm, manusia

manusia oh manusia. bersepah jenis manusia dekat dunia ni kan ? ada yang plastik, ade yang besi, ada yang macam babi. hah, mcm mcm rupa la senang kata. haishh. harap muka je handsome tapi perangai ? mengalah kan syaitoonn. alaa, handsome la sgt kan ?klu perempuan pun lebih kurang je. harap muka je bajet lawa tapi perangai ? hah ambik kau, plastik, munafik jangan nak kata la kan ? mmg muka kulit babi la kan ? depan lain, belakang lain. mcm hareemmm. time susah mula lah, 'wey tolong aku ni, wey tolong aku tu' then awak yang kesian ni pun tolong la jelaa. pikir membe kan tp kalau da senang ? hah, kepala membe jugak awak pijak. susah la klu diri sendiri tak nak faham. umur dah semakin meningkat tp pemikiran still lagi ditakuk yang cetek. tak penah berubah. tak penah ade usaha nak memajukan diri. pelik pelik dan sangat pelik. hah, biar lah. PEGI MAMPOS la orang orang mcm ni. janji aku bahagia dan tak gangu hidup aku, ALHAMDULILLAH :)

*p/s - menulis mengikut pengalaman lampau :)

Sahur .

Hah, baru je lepas sahur dgn DAVID td. DAVID ni housemate. Dia KRISTIAN. Tp dia puasa jugak tau ? Haha. Siap sahur sekali. Haha. Sahur ape semua dah, so ape lagi kan ? Tidor lah. Haha. Jam pun da pukul 4.30am ni. Jap lg class pukul 9.30am. Haa. Mata pun da rabak. Okayy goodnight plus goodmorning :)

*set 3 alarm. Tp macam bangun je ? Haha. Last last housemate jugak yg kejut :p haha.

Saving !

Yeah. Kene saving ! Banyak benda nak buat and nak beli ni. Haha. Brjimat cermat untuk :
*beli RUTE stick for drum
*beli mallets for timpani
*beli snare for drum
*beli VANS baru :p
*nak beli MACBETH !
*trip to korea ! :D

hah, ni jelaa target yang terdekat kott. Haha. So, kene BERJIMAT CERMAT mulai dr sekarang ! GO !

p/s - harap bkn hot hot chicken shit dh la :p haha

art ?

err, ini ape wey ? sumpah mmg BERSENI kan orang ni ? teruja gila time first time tgk. wow wow dan wow. haa. tak tau nk ckp mcm mane tp MEMANG TUHAN MAHA BERKUASA lah :)

class agama !

haha. ni bukan tidur tau ? tp BERTAFAKUR. haha. entah mcm mane boleh terlelap woh. dah la ustaz mcm nak tak nak je cakap. SLOW NAK MAMPOS ! so better tidor dari kitorang bising kan ? haha

*jangan tiru aksi ini didalam kelas

heyyo :D

ohh penat + lenguh plus letih ni. haha. same jelaa kan ? haha. petang tadi pegi KL. almaklumlah tadi pegi KL naik train. mmg penat la kan ? haha. dah lame tk naik train. asyik naik kereta je. haha :D tp tp, nasib baik orang tk ramai. maybe orang balik kampung kott. first week ramadhan kan. nak shopping pun poket still kosong lagi. haha. termasuk la saya. haha. tadi dah kuar lg RM 200. beli mallets marimba saje dah RM 170 then beli slipper RM 20 patu tggl RM 10. haa. barang music mmg mahal lah. PADAN MUKA aku. haha. tp nak buat mcm mane, nak belajar kan ? so kene hargai and study hard la kan ? :)


*now playing what happened by H2O

Hotstuff :D

Saya budak HOT ! kenape ? Sebab ,
*saya pakai baju Topman
*saya pakai kasut Supra
*saya suka lepak depan pavi
*saya suka tangkap gambar dekat entrance pavi
*saya suka tangkap gambar dalam toilet pavi
*saya suka pegi clubbing dan saya tak suka pegi gig.

Saya dah buat semua ni, SAYA HOTSTUFF TAK ? Haha :D

p/s - jangan tnya kenape aku tapak muka kau lelaju klu kau jadi macam ni. Haha :D

*sorry kalau anda terasa, ini cuma rekaan semata mata :)

ramadhan :)

hmm, masuk hari ni tepat 5 hari kita puase :) alhamdulillah i still lagi tak tinggal. haa, mcm mane la i nak ponteng kalau dah 4 orang housemate i yg KRISTIAN pun join puasa skali. haha. mmg mcm pelik tp ini lah kebenaran nya. cewah. haha. time sahur, bukan i yg kejut dorang tapi dorang yg kejut i. haha :D then bila i tidor smpai pukul 4, dorang kejut and cakap jgn tidor lelame. makruh. haishh. malu okayy ? haha :D pape pun, SELAMAT BERPUASA :)

*ape hal aku pakai I ni ? mcm geli je ? haha :D

Dookie :)

yes Dookie ? hmm, first sekali benda yg terlintas bila first time dgr lagu from this album, aku terpikir yg 'err. WTF ? dorang ni pakai otak ape ? sumpah SEMUA LAGU MEREKA TERBAIK' haisshh, mat salleh mmg berbakat. pelik pelik.


*saya lg prefer DOOKIE daripada WARNING, AMERICAN IDIOT, 21TH CENTURY BREAKDOWN. awak pula bagaimana ? :)

auwww auwww :)

ohhh duniaaaa. indah nye cinta kan ? auwww :) tp mcm mane nak bgtau eh ? hah, biar lah. pendam je. haha. kalau melepas ? senang je, PADAN MUKA :D haha. tp pape pun, yes saya suka dekat dia dan saya rase saya da jatuh cinta kott ? auwww. haha :D


*now playing - punk rock girl by mxpx

superhero :)

superhero ? haha. ni semua impian kanak kanak kan ? haha. tp tidak bagi aku. for me, superhero impian semua orang. haha. kenape ? sebab sampai sekarang aku still lagi teringin nak jd superman :p haha

*luaran je 18 but dalaman still lagi 12 :p

NEXT MISSION !

this is my next mission, GUTTERMOUTH ! haha. best duh band ni. mmg punkrock abes lah. haha. dan secara automatiknya aku akan menghadirkan diri pada 6 nov nnt. haha. aku tak nak pisang berbuah 2 kali dan aku taknak menangis sekali lagi sebagai mana aku menanges tak dpt pegi tgk MXPX last year. haha. aku SANGAT RUGI tau tk dpt tgk MXPX. haha. pape pun GUTTERMOUTH, kita jumpe nnt ye :)


*NO USE FOR A NAME , MXPX dah datang MALAYSIA . BLINK 182 BILA LAGI ? :)

sekali lagi -.-

yes, sekali lagi kne game. haha. mcmni, tadi ade class principal drum and percussion. class tu start pukul 4pm and hari ni class ade satu je. so lepak lepak dekat fakulti smpai pukul 1pm, aku pun terus balik hostel. then sampai je dekat dlm bilik, aku pun ape lagi, online la jap kan. update ape ape yg patut. haa. lepas tu mata aku rase berat sgt. hah, pepaham la. ape lagi klu berat tu berat nak tidur la kan. haha. so aku pun decide la nk tidur. tp before tu aku pun ade suruh cik shima fauzil kejut aku tidor sbb aku tau yg aku mmg susah nk bangun jap lg. so aku pun suruh la si dia kejut and aku pun set alarm dekat phone and jam loceng and aku pun tidor lah. nak dipendekkan cerita, time aku trbangun tu, jam dekat tgn da tepat pukul 4.05pm. oh fuck ! class da start wey. aduhh. mcm mane ni. lambat lagi la mcm ni ! so aku pun dgn tak mandi nye terus pkai baju, cuci muka skett, gosok gigi sket then terus gerak fakulti sepantas yg boleh. haha. so sampai je dekat pintu pagar fakulti, aku tersedar yg aku terlupa bawak score music aku. oh shit. nk main mcm mane jap lg kan klu da tk bawak. haa. so aku pun pinjam la abbas munawwar pnya then pegi photostat. hah, smpai je dekat blok c, kedai photostat tu tutup pulak ! haishh. aku dh la dah lambat ni. grr. patu aku pun berlari pegi library. dh la puasa kan. haa. mmg penat lah. smpai je dekat library, aku still lg tk dpt photostat kertas tu sbb aku kene ade card ape ntah. aduhh. mcm mane ni, aku pun biarkan je then dgn pantas dan bersemangat aku berlari pegi class percussion yg ade dekat tingkat 3 tu. haa, smpai je dekat dpn pintu dgn keadaan tercungap cungap, dgn selamber je lecturer aku ckp yg class cancel. ape !? haa. penat sial, buat penat je aku ye ye cari kedai photostat. haa. klu korang nk tau, ni second time aku jd mcm ni. hari tu class drum jugak. haha. malang kan nasib ? haha. padan muka. haha :D

p/s - ready sejam awal before nk pegi class :)

my favourite words :)

Waking up to true friends at the door was the best
thing that could have happened to me that morning.
A pool of vomit and curiosity, what the fuck was
going on? "I need to quit this" were my
favorite words, but i never did shit about it. If
it wasn't for the people that i have now, i'd be
in the same place i started. Thank you, from the
bottom of my heart, it can not be said enough. As
i take another hit, i sort of wonder why... Deeper
and deeper, i dug my grave and the further way i'd
be from the one place that i thought about on
sober weeks. I never want to be like that again,
and nothing to remind me. I love it here and i'll
never leave, this is my fucking home. Never forget
and never regret, i'll always be out of step, i'll
always be Straight Edge

for you and for me !

I'll try my best to live each day better than the
last. To find the strength to fight, to hold on to
what's right for me. And you should try your best
to make this last as long as your heart allows it,
and to make this fucking count (for you). I'm not
invincible, but i believe in myself, and i believe
in Straight Edge. We all die someday, i'll die
standing for what i believe, and i'll stay
positive (and i'll keep focused). In all
sincerity, this means the world to me, and i'll
give everything. Choose the battles that you live
and die for, it's time to make a start. Whatever
it is that you have to fight for, to anyone with
heart, make your stand.

FLU -.-

okayy. today hari first kita puasa and aku flu lah -.- hingus meleleh je. mate pun pedih pedih ni. adekah ni tanda nak demam ? oh tidaaakkkk. aku tk nak demam. tersiksa wey :( dah la pagi tadi aku tak sahur. aku ye ye la set alarm smpai tiga. jam loceng and 2 phone aku. tp aku tak bangun pun. haa. nak pegi class td pun zack yg kejut, klu tidak mmg BURN la kan. mmg aku tak dpt ambik quiz aural skill la kan. haa. berbalik pada quiz tadi, waa. susah duh ! serius shit aku tak dapat jawab. haa. aku pun tak tau key ape yg miss faezah tekan tu. haishh. aku rase mesti aku yang paling terokk ott. haishh. peduli lah. janji dah buat yg terbaik kan. haa. so next quiz is HISTORY OF MUSIC. ini lagi satu subject yg GRRR *pepaham la kan. haha :D and next week jugak ade midterm studio exam. exam drum. haa. dah la aku tk dpt lagi lagu yg lecturer bagi tu. susah wey. naseb badan la kann. haha :D

selamat berpuasa :)

aku ingatkan raya je orang wish tp puasa pun same eh ? haha. setelah di total kan kesemuanya, aku dapat 23 text daripada kawan kawan yg ucap selamat berpuasa. haha :D termasuk la satu drpd si dia. hehe. hmm, aku harap aku dapat puasa full this year. amin. keyh la, malas nak membebel panjang. jap lagi nak bangun sahur pulak kan :) so aku tidor dulu. goodnight semua :)


now playing - first date by blink 182

aurall !

oh dammnn. esok 12 august is my first quiz for MUF 102 ( aural skill ). susah duh. practise pun mcm hareeemm je. haishh :( takott duh.

tradisional :)

haha. tadi aku belajar main caklempong. ingatkan kene ketuk ketuk je rupa rupanya kene baca note music jugak ? haha. tp nasib baik senang :D best main benda ni. selalu aku main berdiri tp ini first time main duduk. haha. best gila even aku agak bengong sementara tadi. mane tak nye. part aku part up beat. mmg susah la kan ? haha. tp pape pun aku dapat jugak main dan sangat enjoy :)

2.45 am :)

haa. hari ni nak tidor awal. esok ade quiz kan. quiz bukan hari ni tapi esok. aku je yang silap tarikh. semangat lebih katekan. haha :D so goodnight semua. jage diri :)

now playing the realness by 50 lions (down to nothing/50 lions split EP )

akak ? :D

haha. pagi tadi time dekat fakulti, aku saje la online jap. tetiba ade si dia antar dekat wall ' hai, saya akak awak :)' err ape ? euww. seumur aku, aku tak penah ade kakak okayy so agak janggal la bila orang pggl aku adik secara 'lain mcm'. haha :D then tadi si dia ade call aku the dia ckp ape korang tau ? dia kate 'hai adik'. euwww ! meremang gila bulu roma. haha. laen la dia call and panggil sayang ke, ape ke. sejuk la sikit hati ni. ni tak ? adik ? euww. bapak 'adik' boleh la. haha :D pape pun i tak kesah la you nak pggl i ape. janji kita still lagi berkawan and still lagi tersenyum :)

now playing smash it by down to nothing ( splitting headache )

exam week

18 - 20 august 2010 . err aku ade midterm studio exam time ni . even exam dia kita just kene maen lagu yang dorang da bagi , tp tetap susah wey . serius shit aku agak rungsing ni . dgn quiz yang agak banyak. haishh . dah la aku baru part 1 . so mmg kene score pointer tggi la kan ? haishh . runsing runsing . buat pulak klu aku putus cinta time time mcm ni ? pergh , mmg aku terus failed lah . confirm ! haha . nasib saya SINGLE tau . haha . SINGLE but NOT AVAILABLE . haha . WHY ? sebab err ade lah . haha . orang yang tau , tau lah kan :)

arghhh

sekarang jam da pukul 4 am. esok ade quiz wey ! music theory pulak tu . susah -.- so aku nak study jap and nak tidor. esok quiz pukul 9.30 am. haishh. goodnight awak :)

shima fauzil :)

SHIMA FAUZIL

* anda comel
* anda baik
* anda happy go lucky
* anda suka layan saya
* anda banyak kawan berlainan jantina seperti saya
* anda memahami
* kepala anda mereng
* anda suka usik saya
* anda kakak saya
* anda suka call saya . saya suka ! :D

anda , anda dan anda . saya ? :p

kasut lagi ? haha

alalala colour ni. haha :D comel nye :') haha. aku mmg minat VANS lah so that why aku tgk kasut ni je. haha. lgpun pakai VANS bru HARDCORE kan ? *ceh gila ayat budak budak trendy. haha :D

* 7 pasang VANS dekat umah da boleh bagi lipan pakai dah .

kasut raya :D

ni la kasut raya aku taun ni. haha. VANS SEX PISTOL. haha. ade 2 colour. green and yellow but aku beli yellow sebab abang beli green. hee. boleh tukar tukar nnt. yeayyy ! :D


*now playing boston by have heart ( boston straight edge hardcore )

gorilla biscuit ?

err, mane dapat kasut ni wey ? sumpah RARE duh ! first time aku jumpe dan tengok VANS hardcore band pnya. wowwww :D

awakkk :)

awakk, thanks for call eh. actually i malu nak cakap tapi ntah la. i rindu you kott. haha :D dan sorry if i jd mcm lelaki 'psyco' or 'emo' or 'jiwang' or ape ape lah. haha :D err, i taknak cakap name tp sape makan cili terase pedasnye. sape kentut busuk terbau busuk nye :p haha. goodnight okayy. jage diri :)


*now playing everything sucks when you gone by mxpx

oh korea :D

next destination ? TARAAAA ! :D haha


apa ni apa ni ? haha. bulan disember nnt, KIDS ON THE MOVE ( KLANG MODERN HARDCORE PUNK BAND ) nak buat tour dekat KOREA and and aku mmg menaruh harapan nak pegi sebab bukan senang nak pegi sane and pegi gig dekat sane! haha. sebenarnye aku planning nak pegi sane bukan sebab nak melancong or ape tapi sebab nak pegi GIG. gila bukan ? haha. tapi itulah saya. seorang pencinta music :) hmm, daaaannn aku nak tgk mcm mane life HARDCORE AND STRAIGHT EDGE dekat sne. hee. dan dan dan yang paling penting aku nak tgk THE GEEKS ! yeah ! EVERYTIME WE FALL, AS WE SPEAK, RESPECT !. hah, semangat nak dengar lagu dorang ni. haha. tu la, time band ni datang malaysia time 2007 dulu aku tak pegi. padan muka. haha. so, aku harus menabung dari sekarang dan berjimat dari sekarang. ohh koreaaa, ohh shimaa :')



THE GEEKS <3

oh kedah, oh ayah.

7 august 2010 aku balik kedah sbb nak hantar kereta. bertolak dari shah alam dlm pukul 5 pm dgn abang aku then sampai kedah dalam pukul 9 lebih lah. haa. nasib baik aku tak drive but abang yg drive straight sampai kedah. dia cakap dia larat so aku boleh la practise main snare untuk aku pnya midterm studio exam and buat assignment time dalam kereta tu. tp ni bukan aku nak cite tentang apa yang aku buat dalam kereta tp aku nak cite something yang bagi aku menyentuh kalbu wey. cewah. haha. mcm ni, sampai je kedah, aku pun pegi rumah TOKNGAH. rumah dia area area situ jugak. so pegi la and lepak lepak borak jap. then bila jam dekat dinding da tepat pukul 10.30 pm, aku, abang, adik and ayah pun angkat bontott and beransur pulang ke rumah. sampai je dekat rumah, aku macam biasa lah. bukak baju semua tinggal boxer and bukak lappy then ape lagi kan ? online lah ! haa. tetiba aku terpandang drama tv3 dekat ruang tamu. haishh. mcm best je cite ni so aku pun decide nak OFFLINE and pegi layan drama jap. so abang la take over lappy aku tu. and aku pun ape lagi, dekat tekun layan drama tu. time jam tepat pukul 12.30am, perut aku da mcm arghhh. lapar gila wey. nak kuar makan, MALAS so ape lagi, MCDONALD la kan ? so aku pun call MCD. for your information, time ni my dad da tidor dah. penat agaknye. so aku pun call la MCD and cakap pnya cakap tetiba boleh pulak akak MCD tu ckp yg MCD area tempat aku tu da tutup. oh FUCK. aku dah la lapar ni so aku pun terpaksa la kuar pegi beli makan kan. haa. then aku pun amek la kunci kereta and pegi bukak pintu pagar. aku taknak bapak aku terjage disebabkan enjin kereta tu so aku pun ingt nak tolak kereta tu kuar dari rumah dulu and baru start. so aku pun turunkan handbrake then adik aku tetiba datang and tolak kereta tu dari depan. patu kereta pun mengelunsur ke belakang. oh fuck oh fuck ! mane brek ni ? aku pun tekan pnya tekan perghhh tak berhenti ! haa. kenape ni ! lepas tu pintu kereta tu sangkut dekat pagar and and KEDEGANGG ! kuat gila bunyi. haa. kemek pintu kereta tu tau. aku pun da gelabah tahap gaban ni. pintu nak tutup pun tk boleh then aku sepak kuat kuat baru boleh tutup pintu tu. adi aku da gelabah da then abang aku membebel bebel. haishh. time tu mcm mcm dalam kepale otak ni. menyesal la, tu la ni la. haa. abang bgtau yang pintu dah senget. da tak boleh buat ape. kene tukar pintu baru la nampaknye. haa. mane nak dapt duit ! aku makin RESAH. *cewah ayat. haishh. risau risau. and time tu nafsu makan terus terpotong. tros tak lapar. takott pnya pasal kan. haha. so aku pun parking balik kereta dalam rumah then pegi atas katil and pikir macam mane la nak bgtau dekat ayah ni. haa. confirm ayah marah pnya nanti. dan makin kurang la peluang aku nak dapat kereta baru ! haaa. so pikir pnya pikir pun tak guna so aku decide nak tidor and pagi esok nak bangun awal sebab nak pegi bengkel untuk baiki kereta tu. so keesokkannye, aku pun bangun then aku tgk ayah da bangun da pagi tu. haa. mcm mane ni ? aku makin gelisah and runsing tahap dewa level 8 dah ni. ayah suruh aku mandi then dalam bilik mandi pun aku still pikir macam mane nak buat. aku nak bgtau or nak diam je ? so aku pun decide nak bagitau. patu abes je mandi, aku pun pakai la baju and short patu aku pegi depan ayah and aku cakap mcm ni 'err, ayahhh, bangcik mintak maaf. bangcik da rosakkan kereta ayah. bangcik mintak maaf ayahhh. bangcik tau bangcik selalu susahkan ayahh. ayahh, maafkan bangcik eh ? ' aku cakap mcm ni sambil muka sebak *yeah aku sedih skett time ni. sedih plus takut. haha. then ayah cakap ' ape ?! mana mana ?! ' . aku pun tunjuk la dekat ayah ape yang rosak semua. then ayah membebel kejap je. patu ayah amek kayu then ketuk ketuk bagi hilang sket kemek tu. haa. aku time tu rase macam arghh, menyesal gila tau. patu ayah pun buat mcm mane ntah sampai la pintu tu jd mcm normal. da boleh tutup and kemek sikit sikit je. gila la ayah aku ni. badang ke ape. haha. tp korang tau ape yg aku nak tekan kan dekat sini ? sebenar nye KEJUJURAN adalah yang paling penting tau. aku rase kalau la aku tak berterus terang and cakap maaf bebanyak kali, aku rase mmg aku kene flying kick tahap dewa level 9 kott. haha :D ayah bekas player bola sepak negeri kedah so korang paham paham la kaki dia macam mane kan ? haha. dan ayah seorang yang kuat membebel. tapi aku pelik kenape kejadian tu ayah langsung tak membebel panjang ? mungkin sebab aku jujur and aku mintak maaf kn ? haa. ape ape lah. yang penting nya benda tu da lepas and aku janji takkan jadi kali kedua and buat ayah, ayah ayah, bangcik sayangkan ayah. bangcik taknak susahkan ayah dah, bangcik takkan buat ayah sakit hati lagi, bangcik janji takkan lawan cakap ayah dah. ayah, bangcik tau ayah akan baca blog bangcik that why bangcik type dekat sini. bangcik nak cakap depan depan tp bangcik malu. tapi bangcik nak ayah tau yg bangcik sayanggkannn ayah tau. thanks for everything. i love you :') *sorry aku agak emosional skett.

bongek :p

korang tau kan ape itu bongek ? haha. bongek mcm ni lah. bila da tkde keje, webcam la yang jadi mangsa. haha. macam mane kalau semua manusia muka ala ala macam ni ? mesti huduh kan kan ? haha. sesungguhnya tuhan maha kuasa :)


*now playing life i'll by guns up from album outlive